this is the last straw ... I'm done ... I'm reconsidering the whole thing right now ... here is the dark truth that you people are living in , it's so clear and yet can't see it :
1- you're all afraid ... afraid of many things that are barely scary ... you're afraid of me ... afraid of talking to me , afraid of my twisted language that is utterly just words that often meant to be creative ... afraid of my honesty ... afraid of my art ... afraid of telling me the truth of how you feel ! ...
I don't know why you're afraid ... and none of you would say it to my face ... I tried messaging you myself ... I tried approaching you and make you talk to me ... but just like in horror movies , you run away from me before I can explain myself ... I'm just an artist ... being afraid of me is just pathetic ... I can't hurt any of you , and I don't even want to hurt any jerks among you ... but if you really wanna be afraid of me , then never come near me ... because I'd rather ignored than be feared for no reason
2- you never listen .... not to me , and not to anyone else ... I talk over and over and over , but no one listen ... I leave you tons of messages , and you never read them ... I understand that some of you find them boring , but when there is not a single one reading them , that's just rude ... if Deviant Art would allow me to write anything I want , I would have just said exactly what I want within my drawings
3- I believed long ago that I could be wrong about everything , so I tried as hard as possible to figure out everything , including the logic of people's minds ... but right now , it's clear to me that a lot of people I talked to were utterly insane ... no sense of logic , no reasonable thinking , Hysteria beyond understanding ... and to top it all off , everyone think they are right .... everyone think he/she has all the answers ... but none of you does have the answers and no one ever do ... I'm willing to accept the fact that I'm a terrible person , but I wont accept the fact that you people are any better than me !
if you're reading this and think that I'm talking about you personally , then you automatically are one of the people I'm talking about ! ...
if you're not afraid of me , and you do listen to me , and believe that no one hold all the answers , then you don't need to be upset or even tell me I'm wrong ...
but when I try to be friendly , a lot of people get un-friendly ...
you like my art , yet you hate me ... you like me , but you hate my art ... you can't take any of those two options ... but if you do , then I wont ask you about it
love me , hate me , screw me , ignore me , ... , etc whatever .... I'm switching to " I don't care " Mode ... I'm gonna get careless , because you people are careless ...
I won't reply to you anymore ... I won't give you a smiley face or a thank-you note anymore ... and when you thank me for anything , I wont reply ... but I will keep saying one same thing in notes to whoever actually care enough , and here it is :" if you would like to talk to me ... contact my email : firstname.lastname@example.org "
if you truly care , then I dare you to contact me ! ... I dare you to be human ! ... and if you can understand , then just know that the reason I won't reply to you here , is because it never do any good for me ...
I will make contests , I will make voting , I'll even post more journals ... but I'll always ask you to contact me outside ... because I don't want people who are afraid of me ! -_-
if you really wanna be in my next Honorable Mentions Journal like those other people before , then you better grow a spine and talk to me ! ... anyone can get in that Journal , just as long as they listen and talk to me ... even for the simplest reason !!!
Honorable Mentions Journal #1hey there ... this Journal is dedicated to those who not only been with me for a long time , but also showed the best interest in both my art and my own person
this is the first Journal dedicated for them as well as more to come in the future ... so I'd like to thank each and every one of those :
ooops , sorry , forgot her : :iconboomerlov
that's how I am for fools ... just a serious , anti-social , twisted minded , Paper God :
that is how fools see me ! ... and they are afraid !
PS : congrats to those who commented on my latest posts ... you are already more human than the rest of man-kind